I didn’t realize how many feelings
Were left unfelt while you were gone
Until I was in your arms again
Smiling into your lips and feeling everything at once
The sunlight on our silhouettes
When you picked me wildflowers
And I forgot I wasn’t supposed to fall for you
The snow wetting my eyes on uneven sidewalks
Church bells ringing and Jesus forgiving us
For decisions made after dark
That we still can’t admit are mistakes
The emptiness of a bed I never sleep in
Because I’m out the door before you fall asleep
Or sometimes a little after you’ve drifted off
Because I need to be held by you
But I’m terrified for you to know
Just how much you mean to me
The guilt that I carry in my body
Heavy silence between us
Both knowing that I can’t give you everything
But I can’t let you go either
Because your hand slips into mine
In a way that makes us forget
The lies we have to tell
For you to be able to hold me on nights like this
Molly Dickin is an author living in Burlington, Vermont. Molly's work has been published in print an online literary magazines and she is also the author of a full length adult poetry book,"I Kissed the Devil in the Pouring Rain."
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