You’re a flicker
In my mind.
A spark that
Never extinguishes.
A hopeless hope,
An ignorant wish,
A yearning desperation
That I want to exterminate.
Why can’t I let you go?
You wanted my body.
I wanted your mind.
Four years later
And all I wish now is
That I didn’t want more
than a friendship with you.
I took you for granted
Pushed you away
But you always responded.
You always listened
When I struggled,
when I cried,
Even when I was lonely
I miss you before
All the drama.
Before the growing years
When the innocence of
Arguments over the
Beastie Boys was
A primary focus.
The time when
I was oblivious
To your flirtations
In order
To protect your current
Precarious relationship
It was when you mentioned
Falling in love with
A comical air
That I knew I was
never going to be
The one crossing your mind
Alexandra Beitia is a student-athlete at UC Davis competing for the cross country team and studying Gender, Sexuality, and Women’s Studies. She spends a lot of time with her family, her puppy Winston, and drinking ubiquitous amounts of coffee.
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